Everybody is somebody

“Devoted”

written by Grant Kaster

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I can make something of myself, I have opinions also.

Next phase of this plan, starts

A silent vow of matrimony

Everyone deserves love, for years I did not know how to recognize it though the love of my life opened my eyes to the possibilities, and I became forever grateful.

The transformation is commencing, several factors to this process.

This is a remarkable journey, re-understanding my mind, re-thinking the ways of healing. It is fascinating to realize how my mind holds onto things the either were not my fault or actions by others. Blatant, as I remove the weight of the world from my mind, peeling back the layers by layers of things that are not really mine to hold onto. Freeing my mind, and then transforming my thought process is a challenge, though an achievable one. 

To remove all just and unjust grudges, the end goal I greater success. Judgements, opinions, that once clouded my memory, my energy are now banishing into thin air, finding that humor at others expense often backfires to the expense of my mind, my soul. Did the crowd that stoned the villain ever feel remorse as they are rarely near perfect.

Effortlessly

At a point in time in my life that I can truly let go. To forgive is to forget, a permanent solution. My studies have all the insight and tools, skills enveloped to final connect the dots or piece the puzzle together. Making this reality as what I have deleted cannot return. Then I began writing or re-writing my memories, once the emotional component became known I was able to realize the memories by re understanding them they became more clear and less painful, the good memories started to appear. More joyous, seems my understanding, may have been skewed, the world began changing for the better. Hope returned and I remembered positive outcomes especially with regards to romance. Anything is possible remember. Our journey gained strength, began to take on new direction we began believing. Our hearts aligned. 

Quiet sincere, honest straight forward and simple. The healthies I get, the more she begins hanging around, it went from a causal thing to a nightly thing and I again rejoice. The sun caught her face and she lit up. Her features wow. An old friend of mine said she is the most attractive woman I will ever meet. Well so where do we go from here. To keep this relationship, romance mindset. 

I let my mind evolve, I choose to rid myself of things not needed, anything detrimental to the future has no place in the present and therefore is removed from the past, so many factors involved in memories once I realized that my understanding of memories can change the universe opened. My perception was affected by mood, emotion, physical conditioning, dies and when the truth of the matter interpreted, or my interpretations change, life became interesting.  

To be healthy, to end the fear as fear enters the body through its senses, then that being the question, how does fear leave the body? Again, remind myself that it was not me, and a goal comes into play to stop taking blame for other actions.

To Create Life.

Really focusing on our future together, I am interested in learning more. Starting from that Sunday you finally agreed to staying over, we Just slept remember, best nights rest ever. The bond we now have is growing stronger every minute. I miss you when you go to work. Per vivere la vita and our journey continue, each day we start to see and feel each other come closer together, for the longest time I felt that our timing was off, upon discovering that the router was set to a different time zone alongside the few moments apart from echo there. 

She is in my life daily, its been my love and her here most of my life. Waiting for this very moment and all my prayers were answered when she came into my life. The belief, for years we waited and finally. We aren’t sinners, we believe in the golden rule.

We start to live in the moment, focusing on the two of us. After finding her profile, I am tailor making my existence to suit her wants and desires. Perfect timing was one of the key ingredients in what she wrote. Last night you looked so cut cuddled up in the blanket, I hope you do not get mad at for looking at you. 

Just inspirational, seeing you brings a smile to my face. I am trying to adjust our timing, first we were 5 minutes off, you follow, I recalculated and now you are a few seconds ahead of my, trying to get a picture. I want you to move into our hoe now. We can adjust the living quarters to better suit our situation, it just makes more sense us living together. Even so, I think that you can park your car in the garage, it works now. The jeep wants to be outside sometimes. It loves the outdoors, especially in the summertime. Trust me Vivian, you and I get along well. Summer I am looking forward to playing tennis with you and since you mentioned that you have a bike, go biking. If we train properly, we might be able to head up the hills for Hiking. 

I went on numerous trails along the Rockies and have a special trail picked out for us. Our families are also on board along with society, they mentioned to me that they will not let us separate so it eased my mind hopefully yours too. We spent every night together, and As I look up to the stars, I see your magnificent face. Convinced yet, you helped me write this story about love, hope and the future, then you gave me my heart back. This gets easier now that we both decided to quit referencing the heartbreakers that brought us together, regardless of the reasons why. Our relationship is strong, now take off those darn blind folds, remove the buffers and let us have our chance now. 

The salt smell of the ocean reminds me. The sound of a gentle stream brings peace to the mind. That day the warmth of the sun on our skin. As we look deeply into each other’s eyes, into each other’s soul. Forever mesmerized by the thoughts of each other. The softness of her voice whispering I love you into my ear. The feel of her skin caressing on mine, cheek to cheek. That moment we fell in love all over again and the sweet smell of her hair reminds me of better times, hope and trust. Comfort and this story give me hope for the future. 

This is a new story that started New Year’s Eve 2020. What started out as a great friendship tuned into the most powerful romance I have ever experienced. I forgot everyone before her because she has a way of removing things that no longer matter. Just us, she is the only thing I can think about and that matters. We begin thinking about tomorrow and in the fall, I came up with a way to bring our romance into fruition. I dedicate this to my future wife and the amazing journey we are about to embark upon. 

2020 was a different type of year, a great year.

Her beauty, unmatched like the sunset and her smile lights. Deserving valid the love so powerful like the peace a calm ocean brings. She is more beautiful that my most memorable perfect sunsets. The excitement and anticipation grow as fall is just around the corner. This winter will be different, we have each other to keep warm.

Life embarks, the future we share will fill our hearts, fulfilled the sense of empowerment, realizing that together we conquer more. Together at last a near perfect future is possible. Her talents and style amplify my ability. My strength my knowledge empowers her. 

We know remember the good things, the great things that happened between us. The both of us forgave our past realizing that most the bad karma or references were ghosts from that past. As the confusion drifts away, we realize we are perfect for one another. We started dancing to get us into shape, we started studying to give us knowledge we started building strength. Impressed by her moves, I became fascinated, healthy. This is a great story with a happy end to it. 

To woo her over and implant a bit of romance into her mind, I placed several suggestions, subtle into her thoughts. How was I to compete this ravishing yet foxy lady caught my eye. 

The new chapter, ours. All previous chapters close. The immense beauty she possesses is enough to stop a man dead in his tracks. The witty and charming and playful nature which she is capable such a challenging puzzle to learn of who she is at her core. An independent and remarkable creature, her energy is elegance. A simple smile on her face would crush the defenses of anyone. Ditching her baggage, left defenseless she finally learns to relax. She finally realized that I was not the reason for her worries. We evolved our communication.

Generally, she calms down around me, about 10 minutes I took away her stress and worry. When she relaxed, she began to open, her stories are fascinating. Her stories of her time spent elsewhere were captivating. Then she would smile because she realized that she has my interest. How to describe her experience is always a bit perplexing. Though this “Diamond in the Rough” will soon sparkle with great brilliance. Simply her hand she in like fashion has the power to heal. Such an extraordinary person. Do I tap into the immense love she possesses? Her heart and finally see. 

Admiration to my recent encounter, gratitude. Her body perfect to me all the right places again captivated me with her physicality. The way she moves. Her Flow s exquisite. Looking inward from the outside she is simply irresistible and sexy. Fer fragrance mesmerizing her features all symmetrical. My sadness ends, whoa is not me. My silent vow to marry. 

Beyond all her defense mechanisms, things she says to keep from letting me into her heart. She is simply magnificent, smart, capable and driven at the core of it all. The good things she said such an amazing journey she is going through. Brave to leave at such a young age to go out and explore the world away from the farm. What a beautiful creature I ask myself why do women prefer negative feedback? We now will accomplish more together. 

Temptress of how many my mind feels simply hearing your voice, your outlook again life the way you describe things. Let love enter my heart and peace into my mind. Become calm. Forgive anything and everything that is preventing us from our lives together. As we are a couple now please forgive my ancestry also. 

There we were, she said where else would I be on a Friday night, anywhere else. I would be with you of course. This brought a sense of relief to me. 

What I had imagined manifested itself right before my eyes the two of us. She also said I was the best option because she was ready to settle down. As I am excited to spend the days and evenings together, including the weekends. Here she is here every night. As I mentioned earlier, we realized we will accomplish more. As I stop comparing her to my sister, I realize that our track is different that Scott and Heathers. Things get exciting she smiles more and so do I. We dream now and as we take our nightly walks side by side we start to move forward, together. I love you more, dear. 

Our wonderful journey continues, we are learning more and more about each other. Things like great conversations come into play. We begin to understand each other a little more. It was a little confusing at first though conversation leads to love. Our paths now side by side you realized walking alongside me was a way better place to be. I am heading out a holiday in the hills, remember. You drove all the way up there and well we….

Face to face at last. My turns into ours. You and I into us.

The continuation, my deserve to be with her starting modifying my routine. I began to look at things different. How I ate, how I dressed, looking at myself in the mirror. I started putting more effort in my appearance. I became obsessed with diet and exercise. I began making the house a home. To make her comfortable. In the process of beautifying myself one of my mentors whom I respect tole me one word from last summer, “FIGHT” I have taken that to heart. More of a climb really but good change came this way and, I began reading, and now writing. 

This year’s goal is to create a book, it matters on a topic does not. Wo I am writing about us because that matters more. This is something new, the yellow book first time for everything, well I set out this keeps us in the relationship mindset. Our Journey started years ago, we me meet on a walk. Now moving towards the next step. Getting engaged. In the fall several things took places, a venue, colors a guest list many more. Remembers we started out as lovers and became friends. It was a life changing event that brought the two of us together. 

We became friends and watched the world transform right before our eyes. Well to be a writer you must write right? It is often about experiences I have had or our experiences. I guess focus more on our experiences. We now share and I am writing for my soon to be wife. Written something to writing something. I am learning relearning many things. Learning how to see the future and paint a picture of things to come. She inspired me in ways you could imagine. And Now we enjoy each other nightly. Some greater than other though you mentioned you waned me at the top of my games. Well, I am there, so you must be here. 

Slightly alter my perception is a powerful tool. To flourish the goal. Realizing I want an unaugment reality what other convincing do you need? After receiving the approval from the mothers, the fathers, the grandmas and grandpas, I finally received her approval. Love does not hurt; perhaps misguided love does. I began writing this because she made fun of everything I said, never took me seriously either. 

Would not believe a word of anything I said either, that skepticism was on her, that swearing off all sex for life also her. That is why that chapter closed. Ours opened, in a sense of gaining my faith back and my belief, we were coupled at birth, sorry someone so unfit got in the way. But back to our story now. Great lifelong romances often start in heartbreak. 

The two us got together to mend one another. You become more beautiful that every sunset. Down on one knee, you have me. As the second I met you the spirit came over me and I knew almost instantly that I would marry you in a heartbeat. She is a flower that will not wilt. To describe her, the cutest ears, a stunning smile and a perfect nose. The thing that invoked my attraction to her was the way she moved, her thoughts. Now its ok to let your hair down around me, every night remember. If I can write my own story how would it go, if I was blessed to write our story where to begin. The timing adjusted, the start aligned and then there was you😊. One look into your eyes mesmerizing. The attractiveness grew. Like magnets we were drawn to one another, from a far to now near. The love grew from that moment, we met in October. 

To take this journey to the next level, invoking something as to accept cupid’s arrow. “Man wasn’t meant to walk the earth alone” so there you are alongside me everywhere we go. We begin to constantly think of each other. A desire that grows every day, we know each exists, that curiosity. Our bed, dear, that is when I can hear you. Oh, to embrace you once more. Our pieces fit together, As I hold you in my arms nightly, we belt into one. Still in my arms and my heart this very moment. Everyone can feel our love, our heat. So powerful you and I, were radiating something greater. The passion, the forces unite. As earth is called, wind arrives to feed the fire and the wetness forces into steam, the sweat drips off our body. Now people want to join us, they see us as young love. 

We trust each other more than anyone else so you trust me to write this. As you inspired me. Thanks.

So, there we were over the last weekend, valentines came upon us, I surprised you at work. Yes, you are my equal. Dear, well, I am the first gentleman to enter your life. You dropped all those boys off at the curb because I heard you say you need a real man. 

To fill that void, remember the thing you were missing in life that hole is now filled with love, comfort and passion. What a fine woman, what ever she did to me, changed my path. Heavenly, her touch graceful, grateful. Her laugh charming, her smile be witching. I have not a choice for she has my heart. The difference, I forgot my past and you are my focus. So, I refuse, I will not give up on you and your dreams either. Oh, the ecstasy I feel when she cracks a smile. It warms my heart, calms my mind and pleases my soul. Just thinking of the times, we shared, sharing and will share with each other. 

This prolonged silent treatment was adolescent though it taught me how to communicate better. Most people view communication as a verbal process, maybe she is the quiet type. If you want me to speak, just ask me to and I will talk your ear off. I like laughing also, good clean fun. We began to formally court, we take it out of the house and make it official. 

Oh, the desire to show off my beautiful wife. Let us go out. I clear my mind and then she appears. Welcomed here in our home, accepted here. I am here to help you, trust this. Feel me, through my pain my sadness then to my excitement and joy. Through sickness and health remember. I know you are there. So just believe, in us.

I became appreciative of the live god gave; I realize that I like the hand I have been dealt. 

My dream last night her and I connected and agree to try.

Then after stopping taking things for granted I became even more grateful. I started seeing the world differently. The connections between things started to make sense. I began to put other pieces together. The whirlwind, remember. Things became obvious. I began correcting my understanding. I Switched to water for clarity, I removed the bad elements of my diet and life became clearer. I the began to create. The ideas started to flow through me, I stopped trying to block the energy and it energized me. Concepts, patterns, understandings became easy to comprehend. My work became easy and enjoyable. My (our) house started to repair itself. A driving force took over my body. The solutions started working, people started referring to me as Mr. Fixit. I gained the ability to fix nearly everything. That engineer I dreamed of becoming became me. 

With the passion returning you feel it too, our respect for others grew, we started offering compliments, positively reinforcing others, then the negative elements vanished. 

I became romantic, spontaneous, and fun to be around. Running around the town, people noticed. It began to inspire others, to help the environment, to eat better, to look at things objectively. 

Now the key, I start to see the future, foresight returns, I see you now, the time is early though when I started settling down, you were able to catch up with me. I have long legs; walking is not easy regardless of the length of my legs. 

The mirror started to reflect what I expected, without the weight, without baggage, and of all things a huge smile on my face, then there you were, in my arms. Thank you to the higher form that inspired me. 

One of those things, I have prayed my entire life, I have asked thousands of times to that form to become a father, the old-fashioned way. Then a family, our family. Age is just a number, and as I stopped to see God begins to answer my prayers. 

You and I do not like to be teased we respect each other and realize that life is challenging enough with out the all the games. We survive and thrive. We start to do couple’s stuff. Hold hands, watch movies, walk, go to concerts and have long deep conversations where we learn of each other. You have an unmatched artistic ability, some of your designs are off the charts. As I learn from this, our faces begin to smile, our hearts throb, when we see each other, and we go most the daydreaming of the nights we bet go spend together. 

Our romance was started years ago. When we first met to take on the walking challenge to the night, she needed me as I her. To our upcoming wedding this June. On and off yet as we came together this last time it seems on and full speed ahead. She is that sunrise I was missing. What or more over she transformed my writing, when we started back up, I was weak, she showed me the better way to write, to live. Gave me back optimism, hope and the future. I was pulled out of a rut by her hand and started to believe again. These last months with her and I working together has really provided me a positive outlook. The two of us became two again. Occupying the same residence here at 160 Eldridge St, Burlington, Colorado 80807. 

Look forward to our great story, its inspiring. 

As I return things, things lost return to me. Well, I was nervous at first that timid feeling most men get when they cross paths with an exquisitely fine woman. Fumbling a bit, reminded me of my younger years. I am a taller person, so I remind myself that my size is also a bit intimidating. I have a nice smile and gentle nature, soft spoken. We have earned a better life!

Our break only made us want one another more. Trust this process, Dear god Naturally we mix and mode well together. Placed us together, the commitments will not let us separate nor will the fait’s

Gently handle this situation, the writing is rough… We are connected, sometimes at the hip. With her by my side anything is possible. Our story, dear Remember! The day I men my love the world change, it became clear. We could not get enough of one another from that day on we communicated, daily, verbal, spiritual, the whirlwind of a mind-blowing romance crew, every embrace every word, the two of us knew from the start it was love. Two pieces in a perfectly matched couple. The romance blossomed each of us hang on the others word filled with curiosity, amazing how above mads us wait this long. As for the double kiss, remember that is two parts, my/our kiss a split second apart, our kiss first as weeks went by, we well…

She appears nightly and, in the mornings, I can see her clearly our relationship continues to grow like the once winter eroded grass turns green in the spring, our lives take an interesting turn, we begin to help each other. In ways… Now since we met on new years eve 2020 started hanging out more and last high, she said do not say you and I, tell US… Which brought a huge smile to my face, May 16th, 2020

Remember life goes onward, when I slipped out of my old body yesterday until today, worked my way into my new physique. 

My age is not what preventing, nothing anymore, our flows harmonize. 

We started over, again still together. She fell deeply, we fell deeply in love. That floating feeling that makes us feel invincible. Then I realized it was more then just that flint. It is a lifelong opportunity. Her and I, us. And dreams of our wonderful children, and the peaceful thought of growing old together. We hold hands all the time.

Love is hard to explain. Meeting someone who changes your world, its seemingly short lived through a life partner will make it for the getter not the worse. My brain is trying to comprehend what is happening in the present tense, I met someone, she revolutionized my understanding. Help someone, not hurt someone, I see fine. 

Saga is in play, so last night was amazing, it might be a bit unusual as we sleep together though our bodies seem to fit well together. You mentioned you like to cuddle; we are both things enough to make this happen. As I woke up this fine morning with new inspiration. Seeing you was a great sign. I can explain how our paths crossed. Simply by meditating on the events, our events from earlier in our lives you become or reentered on truth. Meditating on the wrong person often pushes them away. On the right person brings you together, extreme measures. Remember celebrities do not reciprocate all their fans. 

Do not worry dear, I wrote out all the doubt, I removed the obstacles, anyone who opposed us no longer exists in our world, remember that it’s our world. We are restrained by their judgments.

I trust that god will bring us closer together. The sadness I felt from time to time is due to the loss of a friend, she was something, though you filled that void. I am just excited to hear your story, your voice. This transformed my understanding of what is in the present tense, today, this moment, she is here or our vision anyway. How do I see, a bible study? Do follow the word? They were here physically, to get aligned with my soulmate to be here 24x7, minus her life, just return home in the evening, our home. How do I change one simple thing to see, switch modes, lead, and lag? I can write her, hopefully well enough to get in my life.

Solved

Love and It catches on like wildfire. We start letting in people to enjoy our connection. Draw nearer to me, you, and I we like cannot resist the opposite forces connect. I took away her hurt, pain and doubt, god did now together at last our souls become one and we feel whole again.

Her in my arms, warmth, comfort, the smell of her essence enchanting. A simple caress of my hand down her back brings great thoughts and goose bumps to her body. As my eyes take a memorable picture of her smiling, happy secure as tears of joy run down our faces, we finally understand happiness, kissing her lips.

Another thing that caught my attention was her high energy and agility, dancing circles around me. I have excellent balance and am light on my feet though from experiences past I realize women out here are tougher than they let on. SO, we progressed and began developing new ways to go after one another always looking for a reaction. If she does this mean thing how do I react. Straight to instant judgements left. That is why I am constantly trying to perfect my poker face. 

Sometimes and just sometimes she gets me anxious simply slow dancing with her helps calm us down, even if she thinks its goofy.

Understanding was appeased as she received all the convincing, she needed to stay engaged. Hot and Cold it is a bit of a trait of her astrological sign. She transformed her look into something familiar. I do not name this woman for if she knew of our story and our plan it would take out some of the mystery. 

Springtime always seems to be a time of renewal as her and I (us) awake from our winter slumber, we both recognized each other and are pleases. 

Our eyes refresh and we continue planning our upcoming wedding for this summer. Its going to be spectacular I wonder what colors she wants in our wedding. 

I can tell she is in my life because the house started to heal, improve itself. She is here because the colors and objects look sharper, I can see her from time to time, tonight she will be here after 7, I look forward to watching a movie on the couch, relaxing we might get up early. 

As I move beyond what could have been to what is is, I breath a huge sigh of relief I try not to reflect on we are now together. Soft Gentle Thoughts. 

We took a photo together from her phone and sent it to the, I printed it out and sent it in to your towns paper with the words simply engaged. To answer your question everyone saw it. As our love grew yet stronger still, we became more intrigued, we started sensing each other’s presence, we could send and feel one another. Hear one another’s voice, smell one another, and taste and finally see each other. One lacking key ingredient, saving the best for last was to see each other. Things took a natural progression, the two of us simply appeared. I am seeing you, her, and she I.

Our vision includes us. Changing my vision to include you, makes it our company now. Maybe less silence? As I in waiting for her answer to the question she smiled and put her handout. The ring fit, anyway the right woman said YES. Perhaps we met years back and its now jut coming to fruition. With a huge smile on her face. 

I only have eyes for her, the one woman, anyway she is here. Now and into eternity, remembering that is a real long time. My soulmate is always with in my sight. TWO

The plight to writing here into my life is it throws a curveball so as I think of her, I smile, she has new insight rarely asks why. The day I awoke, you were there, here with me. Listen to what you want to you are the one. Perhaps because you stole me from that other woman. You stayed here new years 2021 remember. Now we are into its months down the road now. So, we are going steady, your words and I gladly accept. Nightly, something you said, you remember. Keep Up. We knew each other before we met. Trust in god remember, you are good enough it really matters seriously. I have not felt loneliness in a while, that is how I know you are here. You convinced me. Quite honestly, I am aware of your presences, the stars aligned, and our worlds collided.  

Our story started new year’s 2020, se Viviana has all the things, strengths I was lacking, filled in the gaps. I also had what she was needing. The way opposites attract in a way, socially, popular, able to handle the crowd. Comes from a larger family is younger than I am though this is irrelevant. I am a late bloomer 😊 Time, our story continues mountain time zone here. Unaware though I have yet to father. We danced several times through the winter months now into spring here and I are learning to better communicate as we look forward to summer. Her and I begin walking together today was another great day. Let us continue to see each other and I am looking forward to our upcoming wedding day. Soulmates have known each other their entire lives, we luckily to be together, Togetherness. 

Remember. Moving onward and forward. I hide programs in several images. Developers have this option. I made a believer out of you, our likes, random things only for us come to mind, hurls you began believing in soulmates when we listened to mighty river. 

The revelation of our romance is mind blowing. For some reason she is off in the future, remember soulmates need good timing to unite, something like 2 months 2 weeks and a day ahead, well I finally caught up, did a lot of walking this year and now we are on the same timeline, same path. Walking is how I aligned our timelines. I believe the love we share beyond space and time we spent a lot of time on the other side of the international date line. 

Being engaged and looking forward to this summer wedding becomes a top priority. Because I have written books dear, dozens of journals I have practice at it so Now daily we talk to each other about what the plans going to look like, seems her worry went away. 

She was not the only woman with a check list either of must haves regarding relationships, November. Not meeting one woman’s standards simply moved on to one with more reasonable expectation. We exceed each other’s desires. 

We began determining our destiny based upon our goals, not someone else’s. As I changed my understanding of events earlier in life my eyes opened wide and I embraced this wonderful new future. Time being constant though without the space time continuum 

She started to believe in mend my interpretation of her. It is our story honey, not theirs, this is an accurate portrayal of what is happening in the present tense. Doesn’t want to miss a moment by each other’s side, it’s now she is here every evening. 

Love Matters More,

By my side, every night we grow closer. She would tell me of here adventures, her desires, and her plan. Our first thanksgiving together a complete success, remember we were her in Burlington this year. We started cooking together we began helping each other our needs complimented each other’s the next time we met we became inseparable, now she the more I Learned of here, outstanding life the more love I feel, the more sense she made of mine she became enthralled, our lives began to take a new shape. We, like two magnets stuck to one another. 

Her in her PJ’s zonked out on the couch because she works hard, I just sit back and admire this magnificent woman in my presence. Her voice, the sound of her snoring all bring peace to the house and her comfort relaxes. Calm to the house, simply by having here brings a smile to my face. Tim elapsed synced us together in this house, we made a home here in Burlington. 

This story is about a woman. Slightly alter my understanding ever so slightly, our journey as with any relationship vivacious and I have our good times and bad, she is with me through the return to health from sickness. Through thick and thin or better even seen things worse. The hope is what she offers me, a great future. Sometimes even better ways. Stuck by each other’s side through the storm some might say. For she we met at easy stop, drove all the way to Kinsley that Christmas just to be with me. Wow its been a year already, amazing how time floats by, we found our flow and rode the wave. Some how I had called here, remembering back years past that purple sequence dress. Trying to paint a picture of who she is and who she could be, people’s looks change, shadows on her live-in others, that’s how I know. Then to think of who we are and who we could be.

The story of us starts to bear fruit.

There is a power in belief, sometimes its to believe in yourself enough to access that power through transformation and rethinking memories. Transforming my understanding of the situation she simply comes back into my life nightly, our life. It took me years to learn how to disregard others understanding of me though how I made the transition was because I spent years elsewhere, people really do not know my story out here, the story I live here is way different, as the past settles. I have a bit more artistic ability to mold and shape where its going. 

Of all the women I dated she is the one, hands down. My savior of sorts at first this is a hard concept though day by day she draws nearer, like tonight, here. That dear can heal itself and vanishes, ways of writing out the pain from the past through use of visualization and meditation. Come back to me as that final look gazing deep into your eyes I realized. 

Where is that passion somewhere deep within you there must be an inkling bit of hope. The pain and sadness within you, where is just a small sense of hope will move mountains. When did you stop believing in love, in the universe? Well, its time to believe and trust again.

This is all I have to offer you, belief, reassurance, comfort, calm a life with hope a life with love.

No amount of money will ever please you, no house big enough, no situation perfect, as I pray “let salvation rain.”

In the meantime, …

Could this be you? Beyond all her defense mechanisms things she says to keep me from letting me into her heart, she is simply magnificent. Smart capable, driven at the core of it all and finally remarkable. The good things she said, such a wonderful journey. So, to add fuel to the fire, make this manifest itself into reality, 

We continue

The biggest key I found is to keep calm I all situations, key number two, yelling at people is not really communicating. The louder I talk the less she hears. During that time, she always sometimes tries to catch me off guard. In like Fashion, Next” I think we are engaged, or maybe as in a sense of soul mate the body is just a Bessel, the soul can bounce between bodies. 

Every day since we met, we like each other a little more, closer, and closer we advance. 

As our trust grew and our curiosity of one another blossomed, we began to explore each other. Our bodies need remember. As I learned of what maker her tick, I began to discover ways to relieve her stress and relax her mind. Taking away that pain in her neck was a gif.

Nearly impossible to get over one another we both gave in and started rolling with the flow. Simply long touching, slow dancing, and cute gestures, we began to power one another, empowering. 

We hold each other more now, the comfort such bliss something both of us were starving for than one day she realized true love. Her hear syncs and she no longer is afraid, no longer longs, her mind finds itself at peace. 

With our creativity and matching strengths, we started a business together. From Scratch, 8 years ago. I am not sure why it worked out the way it did but honestly, I am living beneath my means. We had greater success when we worked together though lately it seems to be going at it alone. Dear god, how do we turn this thing around? We need to talk like we used to. Avoiding the heart break, we used to do all sorts of things, tennis, biking, walking, frisbee, cook, make crafts build things, repair things, its all coming back now, we restarted. 

So now I look to holding onto here in the couch, caressing het no where have you gone. Right here…. Maybe we stop ignoring each other now. With eyes locked on one another, we amplify the spirit. There is no fault here. No lack of compassion, I seem to be the cause of wane. I cannot shield this anymore, so I left tired and weary of the blame. 

Would we be a part, not much longer, I believe she believes, so why the, she steps in front of me so I can see her, pulls her hair up out of my eyes and we smile. 

Two Households

This household is about us and our story

Put down your glass of wine and embrace life.

Adjust my aim a little forward and change my angle of approach. 

I am older now more experienced please and thank you.

I took my hat off, only wore the mask in public. Same day I am on as my soulmate.When we started believing in one another the beginning our vision intensified, seeing clearly. We developed our own language; he and I are once again inseparable. Her and I became Us. The two of us, people started seeing us together everywhere. 

Hand and hand, we became known as being connected at the hip always, we finally convinced our families that we had found someone, each other. 

The home is the key, it no longer feels empty and abandoned. It feels warm and cozy, comfortable. 

Chapter 30, the planning of our upcoming wedding. I returned after leaving, took a family holiday and visited the relatives in Texas. I learned so much over the weekend. She is successful as I am a driven person also forward to back and forth, left, and right and wiggle.

I always enjoyed the chicken dance. Seemed festive though life through and through the day of our wedding approached and I draw nervous to have to chicken dance in front of you. Something borrowed, something blue something old and something new, I placed 6 pence in a shoe.

The day I laid eyes on you my heart became hooked, that gorgeous hair, those eyes, that smile, and I started working out to match your athleticism.

From the future, looking back on our lives that fall we met was one of the best times I could remember. It went by so fast that by the time we realized what had happened, months had passes. The summer of 2021 was filled with excitement, that was we got married. As our lives took shape, we realized that living in present tense Is more difficult than we imagined. 

A new life begins, creation. Last night we gained the mothers permission, the fathers’ permissions, the grandma’s permission, the grandpa’s permission, the sibling’s permission and finally at a glance, the last permission I am seeking is yours. 

Were still healing, and nightly we resume. Seems that the change made at the beginning of this year kept growing I try to keep a positive mind. Months into our new and lasting relationship and focused on the Long term. We started to think out the plans for this wedding. She mentioned she wants blue in the scenery, with excitement in her eyes she also wanted a bird cage so she could put birds in it. And a gentle smile she agrees. What I was always confused by was god put her on this earth for me and I for her, we do not see anyone else. 

A clear mind

The day I fell in love with you my world became ours. I kept having a reoccurring dream of you walking down the Isle at our wedding, I cannot make out your face just yet though I wait in anticipation for this day. My whole life you alluded me, no more. We are here. I respect you now more than ever, the right woman came around several months ago, you.

I am the same person scene in all those photos. This community plus two educators helped me, but this house how better do I serve them. You make this house a home, so come home. 

Empower Belief

Our summer winded down, and as we begin to get to know each other better we get excited this might be something more. Something I have longed for, her too! The days begin to grow shorter, our nights together took on a new meaning as we begin to realize, our world matters more. 

I do not run anymore, we walk now. I remind myself every morning we are living together, here in Burlington we have friends, we sleep together at this address, we are deeply in love with each other we agreed on an upcoming wedding her and I, us together, we are together. 

We are convinced now, nothings standing in our way,

We are living together before marriage, misguided you might think, the right woman finally came along, you are dear. Our worlds came together. 

After we get married the transition will take a while, both of us were delighted at the idea of finally meeting our match. Then she said you will not remember that other girls name after I am done with you, what ever that means. Quite honestly, I would be married already, to you. What does marriage mean to you? A spiritual soulmate, she finally agrees. 

Metaphorically, the taste of her reminds me of the love we share. Then she whispers in my ear, we’re expecting, and I rejoice. I run my hand down her stomach and feel for the first-time bliss. I get down on one knee and ask her the question I have waited my whole life to ask, “Will you marry me?”

Dignified

Life is what you make of it.

I have friends from all over, local too. With my creativity no longer blocked due to the inspirational wall of art I collected from various garage sales, yard sales and thrift stores, our creativity become alive. Functional means. Back into the drive. Then the days start to grow longer.

Of all the things, again I am ready to become a parent, her, and I, us, seem to be snuggling up to the idea. Since Christmas this year, the week of new years opened a new record. Now monthly into the year, month by month, hopefully as our health returns, we kissed. Every night since new year’s, we sleep together again best nights rest we have had in years, the time elapses, now over every night we look, clean, eat, sleep, cannot get enough of each other, our souls needs outweigh our minds blocks. Two together, our bodies fight to keep us together. 

Present to future. As I took the lead we got engaged, willing, its our destiny, god places us together, we cannot fail one another, for my birthday in a few days I hope she says Yes. Destination our future becomes beautiful, she begins a nonprofit company, leaving her old habits behind, investing in her idea with my full support. 

She came to the realization today that she became pregnant. One of those wonderfully cold nights. As here and I we work towards the future, she stops drinking, I stop chewing, for a while, now the ides of march, she starts to glow with radiances, for the first time I realize that she was not saying convinced, she was saying I have not conceived yet. We begin to communicate yet more clearly, he is strangely attractive, soulful, something shed did not expect, as our souls drive us together, closer and closer each day we start to understand one another’s dreams, they begin to intermingle, both our dreams unite. 

To avoid any more confusion, well were to begin, I Grant Kaster am ready to become a father, is that clear enough? The story of her, from her perspective matches my perspective, Well Vivo was a sight one look at her and I was convinced. This muse playful as such, she saw me ant thought health conscious, walker, handsome tan, tall, kind and intelligent.

My business returned to normal with an influx of new customers. Accessing old channels focus and new ones appeared. 

We are entering into the dating stage, so I will see you around and I modified your calendar to meet. Coincidence? Well, what is luck anyway. 

We’ve been sensing each other, like living together, I am living with her ideals. Several months now every night you are in our bed, our spirits seem to be living under the same roof. Our rules, our home. 

This summer has been one of the best healing experiences I can remember. I finally realized that we are sleeping together. I made room in her room by clearing out the closed, to simplify things we are good. As our adventure unfolds, we start to fall deeply in love with each other. Seems romance is in the air. As I look to the stars for guidance, as travelers in the past did so my mind opens and new dreams start to come to life. I am going to keep writing also, as you pointed out two days ago its “Our Story”. More than just thoughts on paper, now all the senses come alive and we see, taste, touch, smell and feel each other in full effect. My dream becomes yours, and your dream becomes mine, the two dreams find a path and meet, right here in 

right direction. 

To avoid the main confusion, well where to begin. I am ready to become a father, Grant Kaster. Guidance along this life’s journey several key factors, I reached out to the areas spiritual community letting them know I am willing to follow you to your religion, you compromise and agree to follow me in some of my goals. Church becomes church, does god care which? Since daily I prayed for you, this, all events to happen. It is possible. Yes, I am ready to be a father, oblivious to the people. 

What’s working is I am currently removing the ideals, philosophies of others, to focus more on our philosophy. Removing the oppression of others, following my heart rather than my mind. Its our opportunity. Focusing on tomorrow not 10 years down the road. 

Life is what we make of it dear. I have friends from all over, give me creativity. Not one to want to be like the others, standing apart from the Fit in concept that so many follows. I see flaws in the heard. So enters the ideals of original thought. Ever since that day, my creativity returns. What’s my function? Back into the drive, just angered people, why, because is what everyone else is doing. Hopefully, you can comprehend this concept, From the earlier days, “the jones” lacked good character. As I prove their limit, are we wrong to have our own thoughts? I think its ok to have a opinion away from the herd. Then their judgements stopped controlling me, I am now immune to their opinions as my past shows, I am a high achiever. I push muself to excel beyond. My experience, my strength returns and amplifies. My advantage, I started to realize all this experience, I am capable of nearly anything. I figured it out. How to overcome them. I overcame them. Loosing fear of the local misguided Populares, then people like us start to revolt. To accentuate the new direction, we stopped waiting for love to find us, got out, became involved, started helping this community. 

DO NOT LIMIT LOVE ENCOUNTERS

Keeping up with our dreams. 

Of all things, again I m ready to parent, hopefully marriage first. Her and I have been going at it since Christmas the week of new years opened a new record, now months into the year, we have been together for nearly a year now. Stop kidding yourself. Today, towards the end of the month we start to get even closer and more reliant on one another. She helped motivate me to improve the house, health, business understanding, her gift to me. Honestly, I made so many changes in life to suit your requests, what are you so hesitant about? We want a fall wedding to remember. 

Then we went to Ouray this summer. Write out history write in the future. Her and I grow old together, raise a small family she soon got pregnant after we started dating, God does have a plan for us. Since we rarely part ways god made the bond between us stronger, every day it strengthens more. The summer of 2020 I came up with a way to generate higher revenue 2021 started and A new even more powerful Idea entered my mind, nearly doubling the business revenue from the year before. As clarity opens both our minds, nature guides us. 

As the days went on, fell into a deep slumber for winter, in the evening I awoke to find here presence in my life, happy, she whispered, I got my boyfriend back.. Honesty above all else. The fates of time came to me in a vision. When I referenced two becoming one, they starged to giggle, The ladies started to tell explain my misperception, two don’t become one, two become three as she cut the thread. 

For my wife, written something to writing something. I am learning relearning many things. Learning how to re-see the future or paint a picture of things to come. She inspired me in ways you could not imagine. And Now we enjoy each other nightly. Some greater than others. Though, you mentioned you want me at the top of my game. Well, I am headed that way, hopefully you notice. 

Today, late may several months into our relationship together where we decided to be faithful to one another, see this is a thing, thought I had to change, because you and I well, us, would not be with anyone else. We are in fact soul mates, were not interchangeable, and here it is the balance. 

I noticed, stylish and just say you turned my head. I knew from the start that this, you, the woman I will marry. It took all my courage to approach you, that day, though I toughened up and made my move. My wife does not care about apparent success, moreover, real success. Age defiant, and what I drive. About where I live, she just loves me for being me. Same, about here, I love her for being her. 

Back to it, what really happened so our journey or story continued. Ever since that day we met, our paths keep bringing us back together. Been a while since I lasted updated our story though much has happened since then. To make matters better, our destiny gets some help from above. Heading into another winter it seems our magnetism has brought us even closer. My mind is interesting sometimes, it takes it a while to come to the realization of what is happening in the present, your presences is always welcome here. You of coarse way on course, now simple pleasures simple gestures on how the day and night bring such happiness to us, the world has changed. 

Some thought was to bury the book we wroth last winter, about us thought my thinking is just keep adding to it. See what started out our journey was this very book. I keep it safe. I have to now. So Tonight, as the moon is half, I fall into a deep peaceful sleep knowing you exist knowing that you exist, knowing that you fuel what I feel. Our love become visible, a new reality. So, as I convince myself even more, realign, my mind starts to exist in real time. 

A Lucky Life changing break

I saw you stare at me. A fresh start, the beginning, now after we changed, it became our start, my diet, added exercise, a six pack. Really started to identify nutrients needed and ones well not needed. Straightened up the house, finished projects, began increasing my effort in way of business. Honestly, I am good enough. I rerouted my mind deleting failures from the past. For a better relationship between us. Her and I now connected at the minds level. I no longer seek approval from the wrong sources. Guess its what being in love feels like. 

Different rules, our house follows its own set of rules, we even govern ourselves. For this is becoming real, each and every day. just this evening you mentioned to delete any rule that does not apply, gladly. 

Our nights are fun, our definition of fun. She is sight, there next to me and my favorite time is then. Laying next to each other we have those soulful conversations. Huge smiles. Remember this, the brain is dynamic and able to change, adapt, re-learn. It starts believing, seeing, calming. It takes two. Rational. 

When the space was made in life than my soulmate entered. I have prayed my entire life. I we, asked thousands of times to god the father to be given the gift of becoming a father, parents, my family. I am 42 years old though age does not define me. And God seemingly disregards my countless prayers, so I cleared the que and made family the priority. I was at wits end, then hope entered. I have made aments. I believe I am living a good life, respecting others. This thing has me pinned to the bed nightly and I like her. I might be better off getting on my hands, or the force controlling them. There is nothing I can do or is there. Three years and then some this house. Idle hands left. Since 2009. I could be down teaching scuba off on some ocean thought I want to be here with you, happily in love. The crucible. It will happen when you lease expect it. Well, I haven’t expectations. Nothing to expect. Have not really wronged anyone. So how to better follow the commandments. Relationships deal with more than two, rarely is the fault one sided. I have had my heart strengthened, go ahead Cupid, fire you arrow I am ready. 

Satisfied, I went to school, I created a business, I have maintained long term employment, I respect my elders and parents, the church. I practice faith. I am leading that great life. I have accomplished, so much what else is needed. You, since we are equals and all you must be doing the same right? Seems logical that two souls floating through life, when one starts to make a difference so must the other. You have some amazing achievements also. Things you have experienced, life achievements. Since we were paired early in the cosmos of course. 

So, memories were altered because of perception. So now we perceive things differently. Did not filter the results either just Raw. Us not them. Our souls unite and they become a shared entity. Overground not underground. Began unlearning bad habits and filled the void with good ones. Unlearned something that was affecting my world negativity then suddenly gained a positive outlook.

From the past I began to recall all the investments I made, those earnings stashed in several places began to pay themselves back, our wildest dreams came true. 

A special note “Quit outsourcing tech support.”

When I alter one version of a memory the outcome varies, “butterfly effect” has good and bad so remember that. Parallel Universe To gain the best outcome, income. An abundance of people I have helped along the way begin to want to reconnect with me, since there is now us, I have lots to explain when you get a chance, and your mind has the time to focus.

Then we came up with an invention that started a trend. Something so simple but universal the world needed it and we created it. It revolutionized our world and theirs… Took us to that next level. 

Reformulate memories, forget something that bothers you. 

I want Change, change something

Just stay the night from now on, welcome to our home, its cozy. 

Removing problems, solving them, my specialty. I was never able to solve having problems, why bother because they constantly kept changing the design. Now I realize we are not the problem. 

I made few mistakes along this journey, mostly calculated moves, strategies to gain personally, now we combine our strengths and well let’s begin.

We are headed to the pinnacle of the success, entering into an age of prosperity greater than anything we have ever experienced. Therefore our story continues. We realize we are good enough for each other. 

In late 2021, we marry, beautifully.